tomorrow's the day!!

Ok.. I am going to be at the gym at 7:00 am. I will weigh and work out. I will also eat clean tomorrow. I am nervous about going, because, right now I have a swollen and sore lymph node in my groin on the left side. I have been feeling tired lately and I've had other aches and pains. I believe I just have an infection I need to get over, but it makes me nervous none the less.
I will let you know how it goes and keep on top of this. Due to the holiday I will not be able to go to the doctor until tuesday. I will let you know what they say. Wish me luck.

cyn

Same old-Same old

okay, so... I have thought about what I pledged last night and... I am going to stick to it! Today I have continued with my regular schedule I got up drank coffee, smoked cigarettes, went to lunch with my sister, ran into friend that reminded me of, why I made the pledge last night, went to the studio, delivered my shirt, went to my sisters, drank wine, ate pizza hung out with kids and friends and am now sitting down to tell YOU about it.
THIS IS WHAT HAS TO CHANGE, in my life! THIS ROUTINE.

Some of the numerous reasons for the pledge are that I smoke and want to quit. I have had 2 (count them) 2 Myomectomy surgeries to remove uterine fibroids. I have gained at least 60 lbs. in the past 3 years and am sick to death of being fat! I have a cyst on my ovary that drives me crazy not only when I start my period, but during the month and everywhere in between. My feet hurt.

I am 41 yrs. old. When I turned 40 it was as if my whole body was revolting against me. Even my eye sight instantly was strained. My legs ache sometimes. My shoulder hurts. I slept weird last week and it hasn't been the same since. Sometimes (pinched nerve in my shoulder) my fingers go numb and it freaks me out.

I don't want to have a heart attack at 43 like the commercial I saw the other day. I don't want to grow older, lonelier, fatter, more miserable. I want to see the world and for the world to see me for who I am!

cyn

Living the Biggest Loser???

This picture was me 3 years ago, a couple of days after I finished my first century ride. I was so proud of myself. I want to feel that way again.

Living the Biggest Loser is about applying the knowledge I have accumulated over the past 25 years about diet and exercise to my life. I pledge to create my own Biggest Loser challenge and submit a progress video to the casting crew weekly. At the end of my 18 week challenge I will be the "Biggest Loser."

I will start my challenge this coming Monday, May 31, 2010. I will post daily. I will weigh weekly, on Sundays. I will post progress pictures and videos. I will share my secrets and what I learn along the way and step outside of my comfort zone. This will be my accountability and I will help others when I can.

I am doing this because I too, like so many others have struggled all my life with my weight.

When I was more active everyday was and adventure, now everyday I wake up is like ground hog day. I get up, I go to my studio, I hang out with family, which usually involves food and wine, I come home and watch about an hour of television and then I go to sleep. repeat, repeat, repeat...

I used to ride my bike. My bike was my best friend. I trained for and completed 3 century rides. I want my future to be adventurous. I'm only 41, I want to meet someone and fall in love and maybe get married. I have never allowed myself to do that because I always felt so unworthy.

I want to learn to love myself and look forward to being me and be filled with optimism and happiness.

I choose life! I choose to participate!

I am sick of waiting for it to start. I believe John Lennon said "Life is what happens while your making plans."

cyn