Same old-Same old

okay, so... I have thought about what I pledged last night and... I am going to stick to it! Today I have continued with my regular schedule I got up drank coffee, smoked cigarettes, went to lunch with my sister, ran into friend that reminded me of, why I made the pledge last night, went to the studio, delivered my shirt, went to my sisters, drank wine, ate pizza hung out with kids and friends and am now sitting down to tell YOU about it.
THIS IS WHAT HAS TO CHANGE, in my life! THIS ROUTINE.

Some of the numerous reasons for the pledge are that I smoke and want to quit. I have had 2 (count them) 2 Myomectomy surgeries to remove uterine fibroids. I have gained at least 60 lbs. in the past 3 years and am sick to death of being fat! I have a cyst on my ovary that drives me crazy not only when I start my period, but during the month and everywhere in between. My feet hurt.

I am 41 yrs. old. When I turned 40 it was as if my whole body was revolting against me. Even my eye sight instantly was strained. My legs ache sometimes. My shoulder hurts. I slept weird last week and it hasn't been the same since. Sometimes (pinched nerve in my shoulder) my fingers go numb and it freaks me out.

I don't want to have a heart attack at 43 like the commercial I saw the other day. I don't want to grow older, lonelier, fatter, more miserable. I want to see the world and for the world to see me for who I am!

cyn